You My heart sinks a little more every time... And the pain returns :/

Cold. Cold... That's all I feel now waves of cold. Tired and cold. I want sleep I feel it calling to me but it will not take me. Numb. The cold has made me feel numb to the stage where the pain makes me feel alive. I can't breath I can't sleep I can't eat I can barley move. While you live your #life with a smile and nothing but a good time. I remain here. Cold.

Empty Without You. When you love someone so much how can you let them go??? How can you just walk away and stop loving them stop caring?? How can you see them as nothing else but a friend... He was my soul mate... The one... My one true love and now he's gone! He gave up. Gave up on me gave up on us so easily. How can you say forever then take it back and say never... Maybe... If it's meant to be it will be again. But I want him now. I want no one else. How do you get through this? How do you stay sane watching the man you love live his #life without you. Knowing he won't ever love you back the way you love him. Knowing there's a huge chance he possibly never did love you the way you love him... You were my king my world the one I would have happily spent the rest of my #life with! I don't know what to do. I feel so empty without you.

Thanks To You... I'm Happy... Never have I been this happy before... I never want this feeling to end, every time I see your perfect face I fall in love with you all over again, and I fall harder every time. You give me butterflies and put the biggest smile on my face your perfect and your mine. All mine. Wow. I feel like I have the family I always wanted, when I'm with you it all just feels so right and I want you always and forever. The distance between us means nothing, it's only miles I'm still close to you your always in my heart always on my mind and the distance won't always be between us. I feel like I'm finally complete I have found my true happiness and I'm never letting it go.

As The World Falls Down... As the pain sweeps through, makes no sense for you, every thrill has gone, wasn't too much fun at all. But I'll be there for you, as the world falls down... Falling, falling in love!