Break Time Thoughts 2 Who knows what made you check your messages that day, during a time where your heart ached. Risky move but it paid off, our conversations never took a day off. Happiness hidden behind insults, feelings disguised behind words. Looking back on it now, this year has been a blur. We infested each other's lives like drugs do to a fiend. Darkness everywhere yet each others light beamed. Beamed to one another, like starlight connecting to a past #life. Only time I thought I'd get cut would be by a sharp knife. Cuts of happiness , cuts of joys, cuts of sadness and anger too, I'm the drug in your veins, a habit you can't move. You can try to go cold turkey, shake it, kick it. In the depths of your mind, I'll be there, living. Maybe not everyday, it might be a song, or even out for dinner. The attention we got, the attention we gave, all these memories to take to our grave.

See I see the light that radiates and attracts. Frequent moments, the shadows and demons are pushed back. Head first in the whirlwind for so long. This starlight makes you think about all that's wrong. I see the person that others often see, but I know deep down this light is rarely seen. I see the creativity, the dreams, ambitions and goals. We always see the person but never the soul. She sees the dark, surrounded by shadows and ghouls. The darkness is strong, but sees the light is not cruel. She sees the emotions are held, feelings are buried. Moves through #life glowing and free, but see his heart is heavy. She sees herself in the dark, and the dark sees the light; concrete cracked by a rose. We see ourselves and our future is what the holds tight and close. They see two flames, one blue and one red. One full of #life whilst the other is dead. They see two spirits as if they were kindled in every #life. Both offer the heart, whilst the other holds the knife. They see what could be, what the future could hold. Three things to be exchanged; mind, heart and soul. They only see the outside of the boy and the girl He sees her light as the first sphere of heaven, shining bright in his fifth circle of hell.

What Am I To Do A full fledged storm, also the sun to pierce the rain. What am I to do with this love and pain. Caught in these whirlwinds, such emotion, it's not my time to escape. What I am to do , but surrender to my Sensei. Stay caught in this storm, this grey rhino in the sky. What am I do to, to help me live my #life. Sensei replies, Trust in me. Your mind. The heart speaks for me to reach, but there's a force against my hand. The sun starts to fall, the#moontakes its stand. What am I to do in this storm looking at my star Pain is lovingly close, love is painfully far.

Break Time Thoughts. You want to be different. You want to write her a letter, she'll appreciate the time. You even tried to store her home address in your mind. You want to call her just to let her know shes on your mind, the universe reminds you with a multitude of signs. Days and nights blur into one. No laughter. No joy. No fun. Ride or die, always by your side. I could kill a dozen men and she'd do the time. Rare soul to find roaming alone in this world. She opened up and invited you into her realm. Countless moments to bond and be ourselves. But when you decide to rather stick by yourself, not for any reason but various reasons at the same time. This right here is the worst type of crime. Killer of love, killer of dreams, killer of the future all seems so mean. I held the gun and pulled the trigger, the heart of ice will rebuild bigger. #life isnt over, we still have years to go..