Pain After my first love left me I've never been the same and puttin this out there kinda makes me feel like a lame but I can't see tears comin down my eyes even through all the pain so I drown it in substance abuse alcoholic rain

Heart Issues She asked me if I love her but I couldn't answer instead I danced around the question lookin for a way to explain my affection. Do I love her I had to ask myself or does she just give me an erection, she ain't a virgin so im scared to wife her cuz we could never fuck without protection. So instead of wastin both our time I made a suggestion why don't we move on each in a different direction, I tell her it was nice to know her I learned some valuable lessons, under different circumstances we could've been together as long as god blessed it, and maybe if she was hiv tested. But I wish her the best and keep it movin no time for heart issues or watching her cry using a whole box of tissues.