Barbed Wire They call it #depression, I call it annoying. They call it a disease, I call it something I have to live with. They say it goes away, I say their lying. They tell me everything's going to be ok, I tell them to tell the truth. They say they are, I say they aren't. They say I have to look on the bright side, I ask, What bright side? Where is this bright side, To me, In my eyes, Everything's dark. Hopeless. A never ending pain, And it wraps itself around me like barbed wire. It's spikes digging into my flesh, Piercing me deeper, Deeper, Deeper. I want to scream for help, But theres no one here to listen. It wraps around me like barbed wire, Dragging across my skin. Leaving marks that won't heal. You say it goes away, I say, Your lying.

Sometimes Sometimes it hurts, So bad. A pain so deep, So dreadful. It can't be cured either. A pain so deep, It pierces my heart. No one notices, I'm alone with my suffering. Sometimes I just want to lay down and cry, But I can't, Then people will know something's wrong. Sometimes people notice anyway, When this happens, I smile, And say I'm okay.

The Moment When That moment when, I first stepped into the classroom, My heart stopped. I couldn't breath, I couldn't move, I was frozen in place, By you. You were sitting there, Unknowing, Innocent, You had no idea what you were doing to me. The seat next to you was open, I took it. You didn't even look at me. God you were cute, And you never gave me a second glance. I swallowed my nerves and said hi, You barely glanced at me. I kept trying, And you started talking. Barely, But still something. You were new here and had no friends, I invited you to eat lunch with me, You smiled and laughed. God your smile, Your laugh, It hurts to know, You will never like me. You never showed up at lunch, It hurt even if I expected it. Now I notice you wherever I go, This class, That class, Every glimpse makes my heart jump. But you never look at me, Ever. That moment when I walked into the classroom, That moment, Was the first day of my hopeless crush, The crush that would never happen. To me you're everything, To you I'm nobody.