Don't You Just Hate It.. ..when there is one person that you cannot get out of your head? ..when that person was the one person to make you feel like you're the reason for everything? ..when that person has excluded themselves from your now insecure own little world? ..when you had told yourself you would get over everything that had happened? ..when you realise you're thinking about them after reassuring yourself you're not anymore? ..when you cannot function properly because you find your mind occupied elsewhere? ..when you want so badly to call them, knowing deep down it will make you feel worse once you hear their cold voice? ..when you counter-argue with yourself that you have nothing to lose? ..when you remind yourself that it's not going to happen however hard you try? ..when you tell yourself that you need to keep pretending and move on? ..when you go on to realise that you want them back? ..when you cannot stop thinking about the good moments despite how badly they treated you? ..when it becomes obvious to you that such moments will forever haunt you? ..when you have to sacrifice every feeling just to get them off your mind? ..when you ignore the little voice in you that they're not the person you think they are? ..when you push away all the memory of how hurt you had been? ..when, at a last resort, you have to tell yourself that it never was real..?
