21st The 21st of this month would be our 1 and a half anniversary.... Am looking forward to see if you're actually putting any effort into fulfilling your promises. And if you don't...... It might be a sign for me to put an end to our relationship. If you're reading this, you should get something prepared.

Seriously. I'm tired of you not having a clue. So this is what you meant when you said you care about how I feel?

Hope I hope you'll hold onto those words. I need you to save us.

Have you noticed? I don't really say 'I Love You' anymore these days. I don't wanna lie to my feelings. It is getting weaker. And it seems like you're doing nothing to change that. I may look like I'm laughing and talking like nothing matter, but I really don't feel it anymore. I don't feel the joy of reading your messages, calling you 'sayang', listening to your voice, and all those things I used to cherish so much back in the days. I think I just got tired of expecting those things to happen again--you making me fall in love with you again. If you don't hurry, I might really lose them all. That's why I told you I'm afraid of long distance relationships. I can't really get my feelings straight. Help me get my feelings back on track. Help me make myself say 'I Love You' again. But then again, I'm not even sure you're reading these craps anymore.

I was very, VERY annoyed how you just purchased that keyboard you've always dreamed of having--so easily. I know you have always wanted to know how to play the keyboard, but you said you miss me. I kind of believed your words. I actually believed that you miss me. But you said the tickets were too expensive to see me here, so I killed my hopes down. Then you just bought that keyboard straight away. For around that amount of money you spent on your keyboard, you could fly to see me here. Is it wrong for me to feel like a fool for believing those words? You might already noticed how I always look displeased whenever you want to show off your keyboard skills. I wish I could be happy for you, but I honestly can't. I freaking hate that keyboard.