HOH - C5 Hiding Our Hurt Chapter 5 ~~~ I walked and walked. "Ronnie, Wait!" I felt the tight grip on my arm once again. "Fuck off!" "Your coming back. To at least stay the night!! Please, Ronnie! For me..." I turned around and started walking back down the alley. "One night, Just please try not to talk to me." Jamie nodded once again, and I could feel him staring very closely at me as I walked I front towards his flat. I walked back into the dingy flat ad Deja Vu overcame me. I placed my bag on the floor and pulled my hair out of its grip and let it down. "What did I do?" I heard Jamie say as he closed the front door. "I let you too close to me. My heart." Jamie looked puzzled and sat next to me again. "Wait, What?" I sighed and put my hand to my head. "I let myself love you for maybe a second or two. Okay!? I honestly cannot do that. I promised myself. Just try stay away. Please." Jamie laughed and placed a hand on my arm. "Stay away from you? Are you insane?" I pushed his hand off of me. "I'm schizophrenic. So yes, I am a little insane. But I'm deadly serious." I stated right into Jamie's eyes. Now turning ice cold as I spoke. "Stay away from me Jamie." To my surprise. Jamie still didn't move. He just stared right into me. As if he was trying to tell me something by staring right at me. I broke eye contact first and looked down. Jamie immediately used his hand to lift my head up so we was making eye contact once again. "what!?" Jamie continued to stare and I stared back. For maybe ten seconds or so. Then I glanced at the door. "Never." Jamie smashed his lips against mine and kissed me passionately. I didn't want to break away, for the kiss was enchanting. But I knew I had to. I pulled away after maybe five seconds and stood up. "I'm leaving. First thing tomorrow. Don't try to find me." I walked down the hallway and into a bedroom and dived onto a bed, still in my clothes. I glimpsed out of the door and into the hallway to make sure Jamie was watching, then I kicked my shoes and jeans off, and pulled ny shirt over my head. I got under the covers of the lumpy bed and fell asleep. ***