HELP FOR A WRITER 4 years. 4 years I've had this story in my head. And only there. For 4 years I've mentally created this characters and written and rewritten the plot. I have to say that yes, I am very proud of each character and the porpoise of the story. Because is not just a story to sell you know? Of course, that was the thing that move me to write a novel because unwanted to be as rich as JK Rowling, but I was like 15 and NOW I don't even care about the money, I just want to spread this very important messages that really NEED to be noticed. I want people to enjoy a very good dam story and yet learn from it. Relate with the characters and feel too proud of sharing their same ideas. Because the characters are inspired by almost all the persons that had ever spoke to me. More good than a bad way. I really feel so sure that this project is going to help my hometown. My hometown is Nuevo Leon, Mexico, a place that is sadly famous for drug dealers, violence and insecurity. But NOT ALL is like that. I LOVE, LOVE, my state. My hometown. When I was younger, I wanted to move to NY—I blame that to "Friends"— but now, whenever I'm asked it I had the chance to move anywhere...I really don't want to go to elsewhere. I feel like if I'm needed here. I really believe, with all my heart, that I can make a good change in here. I want the people from my state to feel proud of living here. To be born in here. And I want other people form other places to want to live here. Because there are too much good things in here that it seems nobody can see cause of the bad things stealing the show. The people here are very, very, hardworkers. If you are poor here, is because you're lazy. Because you want everything for free. There are too many business asking for employees, every day. No, not everything in here is desert. We have tall buildings, we have highways, we are a modern state. And I want to people from around know that. To change that ugly, disrespectful vision that the U.S. movies show to the world of Mexico. And I can. This is the purpose, the main purpose of the novel. And...I am making this everyday. The problem is that it is in my head. Is amazing how the story replays, and replays, and replays in my head every day. This since 2 years that I finally said: “Ok, this is how it starts, and this is how is going to end" and it plays, and replays. I don't know what the hell is that is blocking me from writing this! Is stressful how I can't put into words, dialogs the story that I already know from start to finish. 2 years. 2 years! Unable to write it! It even builds a knot in my throat. And I'm afraid someday I'm not going to remember it. I've put myself a goal to finish it by August 30. I really want to do it. I finally want to print the whole manuscript, lay on my bed and cry out of happiness that my story is already somewhere else than my mind. And then the next day send it for trademark. And then in a week star with the web comic and then leave it at God's hands that the messages get to the people. Because I really believe he send me this mission. You know, the main message of the story is how can people change the world if they use their talents to benefit the others. You know, like a teacher who is great at talking, like an engineer good at math, or like a writer good at transmitting emotions. And I believe that the only way that that message can be understood is if you entertain people explaining that message. Something people can enjoy. Like a song, a movie, a game, like a novel. Something they can get back too. Not a boring conference with a slideshow. So, why is this bitching about? Because I need ANY advice from you, writers. I would appreciate if you tell me what works when you have an awesome thing in your mind and want to put it into words. I do have something's written, and in this days I've done my cleanup and have 20 unfinished chapters. 2 already edited, but those 20 chapters are not even half the novel. Like I said, I already know my story, and how it ends and what scenes, but they can't get far my mind. WHAT SHOULD I DO? Thanks for taking the time for reading this and in advance for your advice.