Titanic Part 2 The coldness of it is unable to describe. My hands are mixture of blue, orange and blue and my body is numb. My #lifejacket is on but I will only survive for 15 minutes in this death trap that some call water. Many people are jumping now, scared of their fate, when really, jumping is just a way of killing yourself more painfully. I try and hold on to my #life. This moment in time depends on my future. Die, or live. If I kill myself, I die with no dignity. But no ones knows me, to many I am a daydreamer. If I stay alive, I have to be abused by Mary, and really, that I worse than dying with no dignity. Just do it. I will just do it. I don't take my #lifejacket off, but I try my best to dive under to freeze myself. I don't want to drown. Such a painful way to die. I dive down until I'm at freezing point, then, that's it. Black... Nothing... I am dead now. I see a white light, all around, blinding me. It fades and I am now floating in the water. Floating underneath the water. I look at my hands, my arms. They are extremely white,translucent, and I know what it means. I'm a ghost...