Feelings You started off as nothing, Just someone I saw around, Then we started talking and things started changing, I realised I liked you, but kept it to myself, Then the worst thing happened, when I heard you'd been in an accident, my heart stopped, I was told you had a broken leg, and that was it. But that wasn't it. Those 18 days of worry, stress and panic, I didn't know if I'd ever see you again, it turns out I couldn't. When I was told that you were gone, I broke down, but no one knew, I had to pretend everything was fine, just for the sake of others, it worked, no one knew just how much I loved you, and still do, it's been 4 and a half years now, the pain is still the same. We should be celebrating your 18th birthday tomorrow, I wish you were here to celebrate it with us, things are different now, which I'm sure you know, everyone's accepted the fact you've gone, I keep my feelings hidden still, just so everyone thinks I'm okay, but I hate this time of year, as I feel like you should be here too, but you're not, and it's too late to change now. Finally, I just wanted to say, I hope you're happy wherever you are, I hope you found your dad, he only went there for you, he thought you would be lonely, I hope you're both happy now, you're in a better place, I don't know if anyone has ever told you this, I'm sure they have, but he was found with your ashes in his pocket, he loved you, so much, just like I did, and all our other friends too, we all miss you and we'll never forget you Happy Birthday, you're forever in my heart, always. <3