Field of sunflowers I knew that you once loved me, That every time you saw a sunflower Or a field full of them When you saw something beautiful, You instantaneously thought of me. How did I get here? Crying each night before laying awake for hours Who needed sleep when there’s no one to wake up next to anymore? Don’t you remember how it used to feel Getting up at dawn, still thinking about the “I love you’s” we exchanged before sleeping; Peacefully. I felt so safe I slept for hours Only I wish it was harder, Give me those wasted moments I spent dreaming instead of living my #life next to you, I didn’t want sleep because everything I ever wanted had his arms around me, So I could scream I LOVE YOU I love YOU I love you And you’d hear me. What did it matter now, screaming all I things I loved... love about you to an empty side of the bed? Let me have a few moments to see you now To remind you what my laughter used to sound like To tell you that I love you and always will, Even if it wouldn’t last. Make me naive enough to think it would, again, I wanted to hold onto the belief with every cell in my body That you would love me forever; You would see that I am made to love you like no one else. Even now, I hope you see fields of sunflowers, and call out to me.