Row Boats 2 I started off as a child curious trying to find my place in a world I'd never understand. Everything was a mystery from the dirt and insects in the ground to the setting sun. My eyes took it all in hoping one day I could ride above the clouds, but some dreams don't come true. I never flew above the sky. There were times I felt I was, but in reality my dream turned into a nightmare. It all started in kindergarten it was my first day. First time in a private school or any school at all. They said they were Christians that they knew God. As a child I believed them. The words they said made me trust them until they stole my purity from me. They ripped out my soul and sold it to the devil when it wasn't theirs to give. I was raped and beaten by pastors and preaches and the men that talked to God. The God of the clouds. Soon my dream had become a nightmare and no longer was I in the clouds. The ground consumed me and I was so deep. I was in hell. Now I sit on a couch telling a woman I hardly know what happened. I say "my name is Samantha. I'm 15 years old". I tell her facts that don't matter because the nightmare inside is to much to handle for anyone else but me.