Pharma Dependency The trail mix that fuels me, the antidote that kills the pain away. Subscriptions on high demand, as I become an abuser. A frequent user, as I continually receive. Deceived into believing that I had gained the ability to achieve. The crown is out of my division, while my future #life is only an envision that has been held back by a single decision. Mood swings that stimulate, mutations that simulate. Constantly attempting to repair, while living #life in despair. A #life that was once a rarity, is now on the wrong end of charity. Seeking in hopes of clarity, while the answer is a scarcity. Acting upon what I hear, as if there had been a mic in my ear. Living #life in fear, while the source to my problems is very near. choosing to ignore, while turning my body and leaving everything in my rear. Taking supplements to feel sheer, even if the resulting symptoms cause me to shed a tear. Committed to the lear, like a long term career. Starting to veer, like a car that has changed its gears. The past is now mere, while the present is taking its time to appear. Taking vitamins in hopes of a cure, while it is causing my body to no longer be pure. The building blocks of substantial #life, that momentarily make me feel secure. Certain drugs make many insecure, while others are accepted and endured. The supplements wear away, as our problems come back into play. We seek and find the remains, until it's far away. The subscriptions end without permission, as I continue to retrieve without admission. I go on with my daily #life, as do others. Within us all, is a single substance that impacts us all. An unnatural that is so impactful, it controls us all. We would all be locked in a room, if we hadn't all been confused. A partnership that has been abused, and used like a tool. A tool that can make me feel like I put in my full, when I am really less than full. We are all the same when it comes to this game, that has even affected the ones with fame. I struggle to move, like an earth warm on a sidewalk getting beaten on by the sun's rays. Upon every Intake, I make the biggest mistake. Pharmacies left empty, as I start to break. Homes not left the same, like a mountain that had been caved. My head burns, as my nose drops like a sunken ship. I speak aloud, until my voice doesn't make a sound. My wants are now needs, as bad habits cause bad deeds. I stomach until I can not stomach any longer, like a man always dressed and caped the mask will eventually come off my face. Revealing my true identity, that can not wait. As I stray others start to laugh but as I pass, others follow and take a chance. I glance back, for the followers did not stand a chance. Like batteries running out, they had been taken out. Replaced with the unwarned, the unborn. The generation that had been put into an unknown war, consuming chemicals that are not moral nor sane. The unbalance of support that bounces back much lesser. Making us weaker, like a presentation without a speaker. Time blows by like a deflating ballon, as the night sky is coming soon. Blurry eyes that see two moons, as my legs sweep the streets like brooms. My eyes peel, as they shut to heal. A darkness that has lasted a #lifetime, as I open my eyes in surprise. To realize that I have committed my time, wasted my time. I engulf more supplements, like a full plate. I try different alternatives, like a new date. Taking in more medication at a new rate. I continuously please myself, while testing my fate. Smooth skin unrecognizable, new skin indescribable. Losing track of sleep, forgetting to eat. Thinking of all the possibilities that could have been, all the possibilities that would have been. I'm numb to all feeling, dumb to all feeling. Like a candle of wax that needs a match, I need a light to be bright. I need a fuse that I'm able to abuse, and reuse. I need a drink, in order to shrink what may come in the brink. Every time I blink, I go into shock and think. Every time I wink, actions become permanent like ink. A nameless figure that no one wants to trust, like a nameless prospect that is bond to bust. Population is now dust, as many are now a gust. Ego starting to tarnish like rust, as capsules and toxic beverages are now a must. Symptoms that banish only replicate, as the reappearing symptoms duplicate. Leaving an imprint in my impaired delusion mind, in a different state of mind. I lay in a puddle of blood and dribble. My sides ripple, as my body is crippled. Not far from the truth in my hindsight, as everything hits me in my blindside. Living #life without guidelines, as context clues go without highlights. Neither safe or sound, a place without a sound. As quiet as night, not a single flight in sight. A graphic less sky, a graphic less sight. Present light that may as well be night. I'm alone, lost in a world that is truly cruel. Sick without symptoms, decisions without choices. No right from wrong, unrestrained. I continue to keep my chin up, as I clench onto my might. The might that I may find another, the might that I may be found from under the cover. Natural remedies are moved over, as I claim nonessentials like a rover. Away from the rest, while obtaining the zest. The entities I hide, the unity I despise. The reminders I recognize, while the things I once idolized are now unorganized. Reorganized into a #life that is made by design, that is forever synchronized. Drugs being legalized, and prioritized. Causing mass suicide, leeching on me like a parasite. The ones that we discuss, are also the ones that make us disgust. While we fall into the traps, and get held down under wraps. We hurt ourselves, as if we had been running a chainsaw without chaps. We lose ourselves, like a bottle without a cap. We toss and turn, until we cramp. As the producers, make gestures and clap. While their trophies, and prizes stab them in the backs. Causing an inflation of new producers to take a stab, claiming what they never had. The purchasers taking away everything from their hands, in an attempt to mend. Frequently endowed to spend, while inducing themselves with a #life that is pretend. Taking their formulas with them to the end, in hopes that their lives will extend. While no one is chemical resistant, taking away at a rate that is persistent. A constant that is consistently at aid, that is stealing from me like an enemy raid. The only way to stop the trade, is to stop the suppliers from getting paid. No one will notice the decision until it has already been made, like a game before it has even been played. Everything starts to sway, as I am left a stray. Surroundings so gloomy and grey, as I continue to disobey. Finding out the sum the hard way, the debt that has to be payed. Forming from nothing to something like clay, as the hunters continue to hunt their prey. The acknowledgeable, the undesirable. The ones who stand in our pathway, like the signal lights that tell us to stay. We will resurface, may we reunite one day. May we ignite someday, and not choose to ignore the unexplored. The that is undiscovered, the #life that still remains unseen. A clean scene, that will give you an alternative #life opposed to that of a flat screen. A place where everything is green, and you can thrive as a teen. A position in which you can fulfill your dreams, and live #life like a king or queen. We will not yet know what it means, until we start to be more keen. Starting by being a sufficient human being, and stop ignoring the things that make us as a whole run inefficiently. Taking ourselves off of auto pilot, and taking full control. No longer harming our bodies, while no longer prolonging our goals. Forever changing themes, and opening doors to proper schemes. No longer hurting my spleen, while the negative factors are not in my bloodstream. At the end of the tunnel shines a beam, as I move forward like a stream ever so gradually. I'm lost entirely for eternity, leaving a lasting memory of maturity. As the young, and the willing no longer soak up nor intake the toxins that reside that do not accomplish our lives. That the old the elderly no longer have to ingest, while no longer having to invest in thing that do not help them survive. #life is meant to be lived and not stunted by the dementing ones who give and take. The flourishing bond that needs to break, for we will finally be awake.