1st - Intro Finally I kneel at his feet. The moment has finally come and I am ready, so so ready to hand over control for the first time in my #life. I am not your average idea of a submissive, indeed the general misconception about the role has meant that even I didn't know. I am tall, well presented and extremely confident. My personal and professional #life are regimented, nothing happens that I haven't planned or led. I won't even drive an automatic as it limits my control over the machine. I have a presence that makes heads turn, although I'm the first to admit it's not a physical beauty. Men approach me, want me and want to please me. They flit and flirt hoping that I will grant them my time, my body. I hadn't realised how much I hated that, until he entered my #life. One simple question led me down this path. "Are you a sub?" Immediately my inner voice screamed YES! yes I am. Recognition of my inner self by the self assured quiet man in front of me. A connection, joining of the dots that I had not made myself pushed into my tightly controlled world and blew it apart. He stood before me an average man. Not tall, not handsome but I could feel the power roiling from him. It made my breath hitch and an instinctive need to lower my eyes, bow my head and find out what I could do to please him. He tipped my chin up to look in my eyes and said lets talk. Over the next few weeks that's what we did, talk, and boy did I learn about myself. He asked about my sexual experience and how I felt about them I was able to articulate for the first time, that my men have wanted to please me, put me on a pedestal.....and I hate it. I hate being the object of desire, it's overwhelming and I retreat into my head can't let go. I wanted to be used, hand over control and let them take, but they couldn't. The first time he called me a slut, a cunt and a worthless whore, I almost came apart then and there. Yes, yes! That's what I am, that's what I want. Do what you want Master. Let me learn you, let me please you. Let me be your slut, your whore. Talking and learning took a long time, now as I kneel at his feet for the first time I know what he needs from me, and it's to hand myself over for his complete pleasure. The time has been well spent as I am ready. He has my full trust and for the first time in my adult #life, I am starting to feel free. Feedback request....if you like where this is going, please let me know and the same if you don't.....I have a lot more to add if you would like x