On a daily basis, I try to push away my anxiety ridden mind and try to overcome it with my usual happy thoughts. It feels like everyday my mood is bipolar, one moment I'm happy and so excited to be alive, and then in a quick second, I can feel so nervous, worried, and almost suicidal. An everyday thought that I have is " Will I actually make it? Will I have a future? Or will I be just another statistic in the U. S of fucking A".