Inside Part 2 Why hello, you're back? To see how far my brain is out of whack? Let's see what else goes on continuously Swirling, twirling, deep inside of me Ah yes, I'm depressed and have been since age ten I know it must be hard to imagine what was making me sad then My mom was working, stepfather deserting I felt like no one wanted me A friend saw me hurting And told me to make my wrists sting That way the pain is only on your skin As opposed to holding it all in Thus started my self-harming story Then I hit rock bottom at thirteen My #life was again pulled apart at the seams Another house, another school, another dad, who is he? Mom, can't you see how much I'm hurting? My wrists are bleeding, don't you see? Help me, I'm just a kid and I can't cope with these feelings But you're hours away, working Seems like you're always too busy to notice me I'm all grown up now, aren't you proud of me? Honor chord on my gown and heading to a university I went to a shrink like you asked Now I'm on medicine to keep the suicidal thoughts behind a new mask A lot's happened in the past year And I still struggle to figure how we got here Thousands of miles apart, another divorce breaking all our hearts I thought you said we'd be a family That I'd never have another dad leave But I'm an adult now, It's time to chart my own destiny Maybe one day raise my own family I shudder to think of myself in your position Could I push my problems aside and finally achieve remission? Thats what it would take for me to consider raising kids I'd never want to do to them what you unwittingly did Now this #poem is much too long And I think I've aired most of whats wrong With me, it seems you, reader, found this interesting Enough to be here, at the end of the story Thanks for reading, see you soon Hopefully I'll update regularly and not only on sleepless nights underneath the moon