Brand New Person, Same Old Mistakes My gaze travels across the dimly lit club in a bored manner, the muscled wannabe entrepreneur still trying to chat me up. The lights are blinding and flashing in an uncomfortable staccato to keep up with the beat of whatever euro-edm the dj is playing. I nod, prompting the entrepreneur to continue with his new ideas I hear from six other guys earlier that night. I suddenly catch the eye of a still figure mixed in the pulsing crowd. It's a person I could recognize anywhere, at any time. Suddenly, my heart is burning, tearing, beating in time with the music. Are you real? Are you here? Is she here? I'm excited. I'm scared. I had handed over my heart so quickly and it's a mistake I seem to make often. I stand up too quickly, my eyes still holding his. Nothing around me could penetrate my concentration as I crossed the club to the dance floor. I found myself standing right under him, his large frame towering over mine. We both said nothing and made no further advances. The mood of the entire atmosphere changed as soon as the heavy bass of tame impala filled the little airspace left. We both moved at once, our hands finding each other's bodies. "Feel like a brand new person..." We press closer and my hands are on his arms, his face, his hair. Anywhere and everywhere. "But you make the same old mistakes." His hands are on my waist. Pulling me closer closer closer... His lips in my hair, on my face, my neck. Over and over. And suddenly, the tears are pouring down my face. Because I'm sad? No, never with him. "But I don't care, I'm in love.." You hurt me. You left me. You cut me out. You knew I was scared. You knew why I didn't open up to you immediately. You knew you were leaving. You never intended to tell me either. And yet, in the middle of some underground club in the middle of a random deadbeat city, I've found you. "Stop before it's too late." The person I'd take a bullet for is the one behind the trigger. And he's already shot me. I know he could easily do it again. But I don't care....I'm in love.