? When I reach for the stars, I wish I cuold share it with you. You are nowhere to be found, I'm out of myself, this lonelyness kills me. I never wanted to live all by myself. We used to be close, and I miss that- I miss you. I dont want to know why, last time you hurt me more than words. This time, I will keep it to myself. I dont want to spend my time being an option, I want to be 1. Choice. The one you love, not a casual shag when you need it. One day we're fine next day you act as if you hate me. I cant go on living like this. It breakes my heart. If you love someone else, why dont you come clean? Clearly it not me you desire and I'm not gonna beg for your love. You made me believe that we could make this work, you wont even touch me. Because of your poor judment I hurt someone, bad. Now I wonder if I would have been better of with him rather than you. Why do you wanna go to Thailand with me? You dont love me but feel obligated to your brother. I dont understand you. So I'll just try and leave you alone til I can get away, soon I hope. I still love you, madly and I'm sure we have nothing left.