Alive I miss my mum and dad. Miss doesn't seam to quite cover it. I do still push myself to the limits some times, in some way to try show them how well I am doing or have done. Don't know why? If you ever lose a parent it is hard, but when they are both gone it's different. They seam back together some how as they are both gone so both together? I some how want when I die to make it as easy as possible on my children. I'm going to arrange my funeral, picking a casket for a loved one in not a nice task. All I need to do now is give my expected child the best #life I can and not die to soon. It's not about me anymore my #life has new meaning,purpose,inspiration, love. I'm going to be the best dad I can. I just need to stay alive.