This hurts more than you think. I once saw a #quote, "the saddest goodbyes are the ones never said or explained" and I think that's true for us. It's not your fault or mine; it's ours. It's the theory of causation, the theory of #life fucking us over. You were the most important person to me and you still are. It hurts because we can't look at each other's eyes anymore. You are my adolescent nightmare, the reason I sworn myself to loneliness. You are the lure of temporary happiness, the reason I cry myself to sleep. I said I'll never miss you, I guess you'll never know. I merely wished I held your hand tighter when I still could. You were my only exception, you broke all my rules. I'll never feel the same way about anyone again. I wonder if you cried. In some way, I know you did. I hate that I'm the reason for your tears. I hate that you're the reason for mine.