inner monologue You came into my #life with so much promise and shattered me into a thousand pieces on my bedroom floor and left like it was nothing, You made me so insecure that I poured cement over my body so that nobody could ever get to my flesh again, I never wanted to be touched again because that would bring me back to you. Flowers could no longer grow over the hills of my body though weeds still peek through the cracks in my concrete, And they remind me of you and the reasons that I can no longer see the beauty in myself. I am tainted with your memory and it pleases me to drown in the ocean of your broken promises and empty words, because you had entire galaxies in your eyes and mine were hollowed by your distance. I want to rip out my lungs because air doesn't taste the same without you, I want my heart to stop beating in my chest because without you it has no purpose, I want my kidneys to stop cleaning my blood because if there's no more us I want to be poisoned, I want my body to abandon me the same way you did so I can feel close to you just one more time.