i already realised Я предпочитаю быть один, но рядом с кем-то... we all have favorite books,authors,#quotes...and we have some which we connected to people near us.sure some special people.one of my fav author this time,time of being from home so far away is Dovlatov.,Soviet Union,immigration,America...no comparison to my situation,but one is the same-неопреодолимое чувство тоски.It can be named as impossible unnamed sense of missing.Тоска here and after will be named as crazy empty feeling for country #lifestyle people sure and this comfort nest u pretend to be existing in,and sure rules or better to say...non-existence of them. so #quote i found from one of the book tell us: its definition for me, which is really suits for one of my challenge in #life-"how to accommodate with others people crap".crap here is unbelievable measure of not being polite and respectful plus thankful to others from my point of view.But lets add here that still u not able to stop being with the person. "Я предпочитаю быть один, но рядом с кем-то..." i prefer to be alone,but near to someone. Quiestion which was open for me for the last year-dont be in attachment with somebody stopped being exist from the moment i got what it feels like from anothers person attempt to stop being attached to me.Funny...Fire stop the fire.Now realization came i need attachment however its difficult and im attached however people can named it as being caged.And only with this i can be somehow happy...for sure now im not going to tell what is freedom and i need free space also.But not to be attached to someone means death for me.#life is for love for people for creation and for peace.Before real love came and during 23 years its phenomenon for me i wasnt accept any mistake and now suddenly brain turned in mood of accepting person how he is.Good or bad i don't know,but challengeable in a way im not egocentric finally and do much for someone else except me.