1 My mind is clouded How is it possible to think so many things at once .. I try to organize my thoughts .. I try to not avoid them.. I try to erase you from them.. And figure out why you ever mattered enough to invade them.. But then I'm overwhelmed and go blank... I try and force myself to concentrate on the mess.. My chest gets heavy and my mind races.. I pray for a distraction to come about .. An excuse to put this off...