Memory "Remember that we're alive." I still reme..

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Memory "Remember that we're alive." I still remember her words, I just wish I could hear them again - at the very least, just once. But I won't, I simply won't. And I'll have to learn to live like that, for the children. For her. "It's hard to remember that I'm alive, when I feel more dead than a pig after the slaughter." But I do it anyways. After all I'll do anything for it. Her memory that is.

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Wonderfully written. Tragic though, but then again that is reality.

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In your bio what did u mean by living a fake life

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@nikujagagirl thank you. And yes, reality sucks.

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@leesa3103 Well I've been sick my entire life, making me very isolated and emotionless. However a few months ago, some doctors found out, that my disease was caused by a psychological pressure on my brain, which was subconsciously created when I was born by my mother. That led to me having to start my entire life over, and well it feels like I've taken a facade and thrown away. After all, it's not much of a life, if everything you experience in it, is fake.

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And now I feel sad...

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@leesa3103 And by the way that's only about one fourth of it. I don't really feel like explaining the rest right now...

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I'm sorry for asking I didn't want you to recall bad memories

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@Tidal That's true, but that's the reality you have to face.

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@leesa3103 It doesn't matter, actually I'm happy I'm able to share my thoughts with someone. Even if it some random person using an app...

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@nikujagagirl Yeah, I'll just have to accept it. It won't be easy though, and I'll wake up every day knowing that I've "wasted" 14 years of my life.

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@Tidal You're only fourteen!!!! Most people don't even truly accomplish something even when they're nearly thirty! How can you expect to judge your life when you've only lived it a little over a decade?!

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@Tidal What I mean is, who cares. Most people don't accomplish much of anything when they're fourteen. So you can't really say you wasted it. Besides, you're still young. You're very lucky because you'll have plenty of time to make it up.

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@nikujagagirl Trust me on this one: I've learned more than need to know at the age of fourteen (homeschool sucks), but thanks for your advice anyways, I appreciate it more than I properly should do...

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@Tidal The exact same thing happened to me. To quote Maurice Sendak "I knew terrible things, but I mustn't let the adults know I knew them. It would frighten them.@

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@Tidal Not to mention by then I already knew more on the Holocaust and Hiroshima than anyone on earth could possibly want or need to know.

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@nikujagagirl Good to know I'm not alone, it's a nice feeling.

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@Tidal It is. âºï¸

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