Dissociative Amnesia Honey, honey.. Food for my teeth I'm here to get a taste So much I can feel my upper lip shake I don't think there's a better place Cause I'm infatuated I'm deeply attached to someone I'm deeply attached to something here I deeply feel bad for the person who has to alter his mind To the point where #life is just a device, we used to- Get by And I'm all.. right if chaos erupts I've seen my world crumble in the wake of a crump And everything suddenly feels as if - Something big is just about to happen and steal the funk The thump of the room accompanied by a routine check Of pulling blinds up just an inch to make sure no ones on my doorstep And we sit and twitch until our bones ache and we've lost our core respect I cannot wait another second to leave the house for clear breath Cause driven away for twenty four hours just about gave me mental cloud bubble 'I can smell trouble from a mile away in this dump' We keep burning holes inside the master's tower But it maintains power, and the lights are on Trapped at home, just like during a long storm He's just a laugh away from dying.. And flowers float throughout a clouded countryside of orange on the other side of the horizon So I have to miss precious weather fluctuations, not surprising Because I live desert dumb sub divisions Still, during the rainfalls But it's still lit up in flames and assortment of rings as my own body sing songs The only energy or electric current present is- Binaural streams and deep pulse Making me nervous Keep my nerves split and curved perfect Leave the past and lead the present And open up that front door and take on excursion I get it now.. Another message on my front porch Telling me where to get more Another session and I want more So let's talk about running Let's talk about #life Let's talk about the funny things And let's talk about how the honey stings Oh how the honey stings It may be sweet, it may be wonderful It may continue to pull your puppet strings It may lead us down a stream of dreams where I- Can see the bubble pop, bigger than the bang Because it's the saame thing... Please forgive me everybody I've ever mistreated I only did it because I was in need of a sweetener And a sweeter girl I could push to better days But it doesn't happen in the scheme of things I'm left looking at my fan rotate and wondering if it goes backwards every other day If it did, I wouldn't care anyway Cause I reciprocate in an okay style The need for symphony and smiles weighs me down I fear delusions more than losing too many pounds I'm amongst a fungus that walks around and breeds bees I then plant seeds inside of an army made to defend trees I'd only bring a forest to the ground on it, in search for the source In search of main vein growing beneath the core of the forest Where more of us wander off course but still enjoy that we're close to each other But honey makes my money think it's funny And my confidence is nothing once I've realized they can outrun me So I won't be here where it drips The path seemed basic, the past seems broken And soon this interaction will feel ancient It's like candy and has the sour type It's like a dandelion with no leaves attached to the taproot Our breath parachutes them through atmosphere It's like my hand under a microscope at 1 pm in July Sitting in the sun as I focus on my index finger with the light I let it simmer so I know what to expect next time I let it sink deeper, engrave, all of my mistakes But I still love honey more than my own two feet I'm a creep I don't belong here anymore What the hell am I supposed to do if I'm just a substitute You have an intrusive effect on me And I can't decide if I'm a lesser being For being another human being who loves to be next to you And I'm criminal.. So slit my throat I'm a little soul growing in the field of madness You're hysterical, I'm the gladdest individual laughing I could sit upon a couch and stare at white walls for hours and hours Now everything that supposed to be entertaining lacks that sweet, sweet taste But that's a sweet, sweet face, honey Moves me apart from my heart and the rest of time and space I could love everybody But they will never ALL love me However much bitter sweetening Sometimes I just feel like Tearing every creation of my existence and pure #life Right from out my chest until I'm numb Sometimes I wanna cut the line and just be the fish and drop Sometimes I wanna jump from a plane and try to maintain- My arms in a position where I catch the clouds like I needed rain- So I went directly to the source Like the honey tree.. Oh how the honey stings.. But I just wanna be.. I just wanna be somebody different half the time I'm getting tired of getting half of night's worth of sleep a week I'm getting eager to unplug my brain cords All retinas, neuron transmitters The entire pituitary gland, to release my endorphins I feel like a chemically constructed youth Who lost all of is choices to Another way to boil the kettle up- All because I'm fed up with the small things My ears ring.. I can't breathe.. Inside my head, 'til surprise, we're dead And I no longer have to feel sorry I no longer have to be cautious I'm a watch that's tick-less Upon the big VY's king, highest within his own universe's wrist.... The honey will infuse your brain until it feels like an anemone You're alien, I am too.. Don't feel bad when the whole world rejects you.. Don't get mad when the gold doesn't get you where wanna be Don't look past the places you've left to rot in memory.. Or the people, too.. Here's an evil scoop.. I sometimes wonder if I'm at the point where I'm actually gonna cut off every single attachment I have with all of my past acquaintances and friends I'm almost double the age of ten and it's getting intense to imagine that in ten more years I'll probably have a wife and kids I have no idea who or what I wanna spend my time with in the following decade of my #life But I hope somewhere I find a light And I hope nowhere I find the honey I can enjoy so many other different and sweeter things Like goosebumps and breeze that cloaks my skin The funny thing is we are all feeling this All of the sorrows and discouragement So maybe now I won't wanna jump out of it..