There Are No Words Hello one and all. And welcome back. It's been about 3 or so months since I was last here. But there has been a reason for my absence. Well a few actually. One of them being dark souls 2. Not going to lie, it has taken up a lot of my time lol. But on a more serious note. I've just been working a whole ton. Just trying to make as money as I can to move out. Here's to hoping at least. But generally everything has been fine up until about 2 weeks ago where things slowly started to take a turn for the worst. All started with a 15 hours shift that I stupidly agreed to. Not my best idea in a while. As you can imagine I was stupidly exhausted and tired. And I had work the next three days after that. So for the rest of the week I was just playing catch up. I just couldn't stay awake or perform very well. Got moaned at by all my mangers, ended up walking out and feeling pretty shitty to say the least. And now here we now Thursday 17th April. And I still feel no better, I'm having sleepless nights, emotional related outbreaks within my mind. Don't know how much more of this I can take. Yesterday I think was it for me. I woke up like I normally would and went to greet my dad in the morning. He started off by asking me "do you know why you and your ex broke up?". I responded with "I have an idea". She told me she was unhappy but yeah...that's another opuss for another time. To cut it short, my dad is convinced that it was my fault we broke up, that I didn't do enough and that I will never find anyone like her again. So as you can imagine I felt even worse. And now since yesterday that's all I've been thinking about. I've done a pretty good job not to let my ex bother me up until that point. So many questions. Do I still love her? Am I actually over her? Could I of done more? Do I write her a message admitting I could of done more? I just don't know. So that's where I currently stand right me. Just so confused and a little lost to be honest. I can only hope that all of you are doing better than me. But that's it for now. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Until next time. This is NathanStathan signing out