I Bid Farewell To You Now. You said you would be right there if I ever needed you, you promised. I understand the times when you were preoccupied and uninterested when I just needed to smile but when I came to you with tears streaming down my cheeks, when I truly needed you, you just shoved me off like a piece of dirt and you just don't understand how things have changed between us now. I still see you down the corridor and give you a sympathetic hug and tell you I'm okay but the thing is I'm not okay and you're not picking that up anymore, you're too distant. I feel worse than ever because you're not there anymore, not like you used to be. Things are going to change, I'm going to change just like you changed and I don't know how I will ever cope without you but I'm letting you go and you will know about it. I don't want to hurt you but you hurt me and I can't cope with that. You were the only person who ever understood me, who truly cared for me, who was always there for me but I guess I was wrong, you're not so perfect in my eyes anymore. I guess I'm just going to have to go back to how I used to be, keeping everything bottled up inside. Many people see me as an adult and as mature but the truth is, I'm still a kid inside and I need you, truly need you. In 2 months time I leave and move on with my #life and I know you will say to me 'keep in contact. Come and visit' but I know you won't mean that and once I'm gone, I'm gone and I won't look back. If you read this which I'm sure you won't but if you do you know who you are and I want you to know that I am forgetting about you and the memories we shared because at the end of the day the more I care when you don't the worse I will feel. This is my last goodbye to you as I depart your #life completely, you broke that promise and now I must leave. Goodbye.