Dear --- Dear ---, Please tonight if you are near me don't stay there. I already can't breathe and my stomach is spinning. I can feel my heart beating in my throat. Please if you are going to be close, then darling be close like we used to be. I can't stand the space that has grown between us. Don't smile at me. I won't be able to take it. That goofy smile you had on our first date, when the movie was over and you grabbed my hand, it's long gone and we both know it. Don't talk to me about the weather because it could be raining or snowing or sideways hailing or anything else as long as you're there I won't ever mind the weather. Don't say it's cold because there is nothing colder than the stone look on your face and the bitting pain in my lungs. Baby please just don't talk. But if you talk then be true and don't be polite. If you talk then break my heart. It's due time. I've been holding onto you for far too long, so if you talk then just crush me. Don't try to be nice don't try to be sweet don't try to save me because I'm past saving. And one last thing, if you get the idea that maybe I still love you, then run away as fast as you can. Because that might always be true. If I collapse in the doorway just leave me there. If I cry don't wipe it oh please just let it fall. Because I have to let it go I just don't now how.