i saw how you smiled with her maybe it wasnt a smile but it was different. i realised how you guys had a past how i wouldnt be able to fit in how this memory was irreplaceable how she cherished you and how you cherished her i realised how pretty she looked like how beautiful her smile is how your eyes radiated the word 'bliss' how you actually did it with her and not me. i guess even if i did ask it wouldnt happen. yes, i didnt ask. yes, i didnt try. but, even if i did im not your friend for the past six years we wont be anything more. i heard my heart cracking a little when i heard it how the broken shards fall slowly onto the ground how i used a split second to hide it with a smile but we arent anything at all so why am i being sad all over? i dont know why you are such a jerk you dislike me you like somebody eles you have fallen in love and dont give a shit about me yet im still here waiting waiting for the chance waiting for you to come knocking on my door but you never will.