Selfish Friend #rant I really want to be supportive and congratulate you but honestly, I'm just sitting here thinking what am I going to do. I want you to be happy I really do I'm just sorry I cant be really happy for you. Though most of my feelings for you have gone away there is still that small part that aches with pain when you say her name. I apologize for being a crappy friend but I need sometime to adjust. So no more stories about you together, please no talking about your love, I can't handle anymore. Again I know I'm such a bad friend but sometimes I need to help and support myself before I can do that to others. I know our friendship is drifting apart and I know its my fault but I think its better this way so there will be less pain when we go our separate ways. It makes me sad to think that one day we wont be friends because we tried so hard to keep this friendship alive. Too many obstacles got in our way now there is a wedge driven between us that just might split us in two. Again I'm sorry I'm such a bad friend but i have to take care of my feelings too...