Disease Do you ever have days where you just don't even want to move? I am so unhappy in #life right now and with myself that I don't even have the will power to get up and do things. The thought of driving back to school tomorrow is an absolutely awful thought. There is absolutely nothing in the world that makes me not want to go back more than football. I hate my job. I've never been so unhappy in something that it just spreads like a disease inside of me. I'm so angry and I'm so bitter. Then, on the other aspect of my #life I'm exhausted, emotionally drained, tired of wondering what will happen if anything. I am so tired of being alone. I just want no part of it anymore. I'm starting to want a real relationship and a real marriage. Although I'm far out from those things, I would still like to actually realize that they are potential things for me in this #life. I am not doomed to this unhappiness forever. I really hope I'm not. I just want to be happy again. I especially want to be happy with my one special "You."