What do you mean bipolar hahahahahah; she looked at the psychologist with disbelief and an inappropriate smile on her face. I am an onion, I work like one, I feel like one and I sometimes smell like one after spaghetti Bolognese. She was a part time senior care assistant under severe stress following a traumatic #life of completely uncontrollable events. The psychiatrist looked at her over his glasses explain that to me in detail please Karen. The centre of an onion made of layers, I have a lot of them, given to me through my #life and I am now a massive onion. She said matter of factly. So I am sat here a complete fully functioning onion of fail. You are a failed onion? Asked the psychiatrist, yes David I am, I really am Chapter one In the beginning there was nothing no light, no breeze, no ….. Coffee. She slurped a caramel coffee in her pjs and puffed on her electronic cigarette… what are you doing woman put laptop down and get up and go and do something to make the house your own. It was 5 months after she had moved to a new town she had a new boyfriend her 3 children all running in different directions and nothing seemed to be going the way she planned. Why the heck is she writing this mumbo jumbo she has lost direction in everything she has done aimed for or attempted within the last 3 years. Lost her dad, her sister and contact, mainly with her own happy. Medicine has worked to a degree although she still feels like #life has slipped through her fingers. Job list Bathroom , boys room Rebecca's room landing stairs living room our bedroom kitchen hallway garden oh yeah I need a bath, dye my hair, fix my unibrow and hang on wait a min I have forgotten. "Karen!!! Adam called from the storage cupboard know as the garage. "Can you come here a second babe?". She dragged her bedraggled self off the bed. And went outside Adam had cleared the whole garage and the kids were claiming it for their own. "Mum I want a sofa, a punch bag a door into the house, and some carpet for a chill out room" stated mr matter of fact. Karen have her 15 year old son James a sideways look. "Please mum" I'll clean your car for £10 and can save up the money for stuff. "Ok, but cut the grass as well and we shall see, won't we? " James had asperger syndrome and ADHD meaning he has issues with anger and concentration. Which would be great if he got angry and forgot he was but anyone who has experienced this knows that just isn't the case....