A Letter Of Thanks And The Other Things Dear Almost-Friend, It has just been 2 months since the last time I saw you and now I've been thinking about you more than most of the time. I'm actually both surprised and not. I was expecting you would leave my mind after residing there for a little time. You would be there, you will leave and you will be forgotten. But no, you were there, you didn't actually leave but I was trying to make myself believe you did, so you somehow left, but then you came back. You may have left or not, you came back. So I'm surprised. But because of being aware of the possibility that you could stay in my mind even though I know I shouldn't let such thing happen, I sort of, expected that to occur. Sucks for me, I'm stuck with this, whatever this is. While you, you don't even care about my existence. But I remember the time when I was able to be present in your mind. Basically because we sat beside each other at this restaurant together with our other friends. So I think I passed your mind at least once. You don't know how I felt having to be beside you at that moment. I could have burst into pieces but I was able to contain myself because of the same thought why it would happen: you were beside me. That was undeniably one of my favourite days ever. It makes me all jumpy and happy every time I reminisce. But then I remember how you would look at her. How you would smile, with that one of the most unforgettable smiles, when she says something funny or when she makes so much sense. Also when she's so beautiful-looking, which was always. I remember that and I come back to my old self. Honestly, it causes a sting in the chest. Have you ever felt that before? Ofcourse you have, and I guess you'll feel it many times again ahead, because you are leaving, for good. It would sting having to leave people you love, behind. I quite knew how close you are to your loved ones and how close they are to you. I may have had just a glimpse of how important you are to them, but I have a 360-degree angle view of how important you have been to me. Maybe not yet entirely to 'me', because we're not there yet and we will never be there at all. I have no complaints though. I thank God for every second He gave me the chance to be near you and especially on being able to meet you. You have been an inspiration I was quite proud to share, so I thank you for existing. I just hope for this last time, I would be able to see you. I may not be able to tell you that you've caused me good things, but I would want to be there for the last moment. Just for a last glance, this last chance. Sincerely, The girl you barely talked to.