Loosing The Battle Why is nobody here? Why do they never hear my screams I'm all alone I fear And they won't come in time it seems Hands shaking Heart aching Maybe if they were here This wouldn't happen, my dear The noose offers sweet thrills Or peace from a handful of pills The knife whispers of bliss May as well try it, I've nothing to miss Reflective beauty, catches the light Poised a foot away from my chest. I'm so done with this fight Cause my head is so messed The tears start to rain As I tell my self over again This is what I want For my demons to stop the haunt But I know that's not true For see what I really desire Is for someone like you Your love I require But kindness and other many things I've learned to live without Cause no one offered any Even if I scream and shout So I suppressed all those screams And had many dreams But they all involved death And taking my last breath About to commit the act So here I stand That's a fact Knife in hand Plunged in deep Twisted to make certain Blood starts to seep Darkness falls like a curtain