ranting about sad shit I'm trying to forget what she said , I'm trying to make sense in my head. thinking why the fuck would she do this? she just thrashed her anger onto me, and I never knew. I have to find out from a public society. maybe she told everyone but me? maybe she still feels that why? I can't even think straight. my thoughts are as tangled as my hair around her. does she give one shit? did she tell all my problems? does she hate me? am I just other pea in her pod? does she care about her 3 week relationship more than me? I don't even know how to speak to her. my words just choke me, feeling like I'm unable to make a simple sound. how do I smile around her? do I even smile around her? is it all still lies. I don't know. I'm so confused, I'm so dead inside. all her hate I never knew about. she just said all this. no fucking signs. she just put it out there. I can't even cry about it, all I can do is sigh. now I fel like all our memories are lies. it's kind of like loosing a love. I haven't lost her. but I think she might loose me.