Turned Down Once Again Turned down once Turned down twice Turned down once again With floods of advice. "don't worry my dear!" "don't listen to what they say!" "it'll be alright!" I hear this for days But now it's the same routine Over and over again But this rejection is the worst I've lost hope, happiness and friends Applying for this school It felt like a dream But now it stings and hurts Like a red, hot laser beam I feel so crumpled I feel so weak I'm writing this #poem With tears on my cheeks "it's just a school" You may think Its not just a school Tears drop when I blink It's more than that Especially to me You and others May disagree I worked day and night And even prayed for a space Now I'm here With smudges on my face And to make it worse My best friend got in Of course I'm happy for her But I can't seem to grin Theatre is my passion Theatre is my #life But this rejection Stabs me like a knife I feel so useless So pathetic and dumb Especially because I bragged to everyone About the audition About the hope But now tears burn my eyes Like smelly liquid soap ------- Earlier this year I applied for a school here in Britain called 'the brits' which focuses on performing arts and media. I really hoped to get an audition which I got about 1-2 months ago. Many of my closest friends applied and have now got a place but unfortunately I haven't. I am absolutely crushed and I feel like a complete idiot and I am crying my eyes out. I don't know what to do now as I feel so alone and so untalented. The one upside is that I am on the reserve list so I can get in if someone drops out or something like that. So I wrote this quick #poem to share my feelings as I have been turned down many times before and this is by far the worst of all. So yeah, I'll go back to my corner now... x - Charlieekinz