I feel like shit because I sleep too much, and get stoned everyday to numb my feelings. I think what I'm trying to hide is boredom at the moment. I'm bored because I don't do anything productive nowadays. I'm behind on my coursework, I can't make a decision on what to do for my FMP at college. Really I should just stay in but everyday I wake up and I think hmm five minutes... And then wake up again five hours later. I feel like I'm completely wasting my time on earth. I wanna make music, I wanna be famous and be a role model but instead I just lay in my bed and imagine it. Almost like I'm dreaming away my dreams. What inspired me was Avril lavigne when I was ten. I admired her so much. Nowadays it's Hayley Williams, I love her songwriting and she is such a delightful person . Also I am quite fond of marina diamandis. I like her because I can relate to her lyrics a lot. And she's a libra! Woo! But I feel as though there would be no point being a musician because she has claimed my niche market and unique selling point. But I guess I'm unique too... Just like everybody else. I feel immature and naive. I know I have delusions of grandure but ... I want to be someone worthwhile and right now I dont feel that at all.