Please Don't Judge Me I've messed up. Very badly. He's never going to forgive me. I just can't get over the fact that HE DOESN'T WANT ME ANYMORE. He used to. For selfish reasons of course but I was okay with it because I was with him. I used to try everything to try to get his attention. I still can't figure out why I want his love and approval so badly. Maybe it's because I just want him to see that I'm okay with or without him, but I'm not. I feel like I DON'T DESERVE TO BE HAPPY because of how weird I am and he thinks I am. I don't have a better word except I'm WEIRD. Strange. Controlling. Freaky. Possessive. I hate admitting this to myself out loud. I know it's true. for a while, I just don't deserve love of anyone. Hopefully this I what is right for me.
