recommended dosage (16+) I am trying to shower away the weekend, but the mix of sweat, rain, second hand smoke and marker pen won't run down the drain. it's like they want to cling to me, remind me i should still be in your bed. but I awoke with little memory and my own sheets tangled against my single form this morning. (maybe you're a sedative; you relax me to the point I just want to close my eyes and feel your breath on my skin.) i stumbled to the bathroom to bleed out that growing sadness I could find no reason for. like it fed off the same air as me, the longer I stayed conscious the more I wanted to go under. Sat on the bath as it dripped from my wrist, i hit my head on the sink asking out loud what the fuck I was doing again. (I think you are a painkiller; nothing hurts when I can feel you next to me.) you make me laugh by pretending to be inanimate objects. you make me smile when you call me adorable. I get that sudden piercing tightness in my chest when your name appears on my phone and it runs outwards like warm water. you make me happy just by saying you'll stay, in fact you don't even have to speak. (maybe you are an anti-d; because I feel okay around you. so much more okay than the 40 milligrams they want to make me swallow.) I think you could be my medicine, I think you could make me better but tell me, what happens when I overdose?