Entry #1: Remembrance You beg for more, you said it was a good thing. It gives you someone to hold, a shoulder to cry on. You betrayed and deceived me. We used to love, we used to trust. But you left, and we both turned to lust. I always was so close to you, I trusted you. You were the only one who I trusted with my fragile body and heart. I remember the first time we danced, our bodies rocking against each other. It was our first time dancing like that. You took my hand and got me foods. We danced 'till the dancing was over. We had a single class period together. We met while doing questions and walking around the room. One day, we did a test of skills in out class and as you tested me, we complimented each other. I invited you to sit with me at lunch one day. That was the day we had started our notebook. We always passed notes to each other. You asked me to be with you and I accepted. We shared our first kiss together that same day. You told me I was your first everything. Why'd I have to go and screw up everything that I tried so hard to change for? J have changed. I didn't want to lose you, and it broke my heart that I messed it all up. I'm still breaking. You were (and still are) the only one I could ever trust. If only I was your dream girl. I should've tried harder. That's what I get for letting you down. I will always love and miss you dearly. You were my first as well... Now, I guess this is goodbye. Old friend, old love, old #life... ~TheBlackPheonix~ Song dedicated to this entry: "Sweet Dreams" -- Eurythmics