The Muse (Chapter 16) Eh.. I don't want to write this chapter. It's sad. @BlackKnight @hannahXOX -- *Zachs POV* I sat there cradling Shanea in my arms, she sobbed quietly into my loose cotton tee. I didn't know what to do or say, Shanea had just given birth, and then been told we couldn't have the child because it wasn't even alive. I glanced at the guys, who were all waiting outside of Shans room. She had to stay in the hospital for a night while they did checks. Everything seemed like a blur, until one thing came Into my head. I started to hum, and then just as Shanea relaxed I softly sang the lyrics, reaching the end of ed sheerans hit. "And I think I love you better now..." She looked up at me, "y-y-you do?" I stared at her, she never believed me, so I leaned in close and kissed her lips with as much passion as I could build. When she finally pulled back she smiled, the first smile I'd seen in a while. "At least I've still got you. I love you more than anything in the whole entire world," she whispered truthfully. "Thank you. Baby, are you alright?" Simple yes, but she needed taking care of. "Yes of course." She said, gritting her teeth. "No your not. I can tell Hun." I replied quickly. She burst into tears again, so I just held her closely and whispered soothing words like, don't worry. We can keep trying, and all that nonsense. I might of been trying to act strong but inside I was dying. We'd just lost a child! It was going to be okay, I told myself. // I gingerly helped Shanea get dressed into a pair of maroon hollister sweats and a pregnancy cradle, a sloppy jumper over the top. She might not be carrying child anymore but the bump was still large and annoying to have. I rubbed her stomach until I reached her upper chest, which when i touched tentatively she moaned a little, "Shush.. We're in a hospital!" I said trying not to laugh. It wasn't until we got outside, hand in hand, sunglasses on, that we were targetted by the press. I hid Shanea from view as much as I could and helped her into the car. The guys were waiting back in the X-Factor house, I drove away quickly, as soon as my nerves started to set in. "It's the final tonight, are you sure /your/ okay babe?" She asked me clearly trying to help. Well what do I say? This could well be one of the best and worst days of my #life. "Can you check my phone please love?" I said passing my sleek iPhone 4 to her. "Sure.." She replied, confused, she clicked the four digits that make up my passcode and checked my twitter. "50,000,000 million followers, Apperantly your the hottest boy band group since one direction. Shame they broke up wasn't it?" I didn't reply, I just hopped out of the car, ran round to open the door for Shanea and helped her out. "I'm going to be rehearsing now, okay?" I asked, seeming bored even. "Okay baby." She kissed my lips quickly for me, (and I kept thinking )for the press. I smiled and took her hand, "It's our anniversary soon isn't it?" I asked, not knowing. "Two weeks today. It'll be five years then.." She said, her mind else where.. // I ran down into the basement and waved at Fiona, our competition, before skipping into the recording studio booth. "Hey bud." They all said at once, god it was weird how they did that. "Hey. Ready to get singing?" I asked with a cheeky grin. They laughed and opened on the first few lines of '3O seconds to change a #life' I hummed along, strumming on my guitar, joining in when there was a break in the lyrics. We all smiled at each other when the song ended. "T-Minus 4 hours." Said Harry, all of there nerves were setting in. They quickly sang their set, all prepped and ready, all they needed to do was to go to the X-Factor and .. Win? // I drove the Mini Cooper through the large stage doors and a blast of noise came through my head, the crowd was intense, I jumped out of the car to the beat of we'll live while we're young. We'd chosen the one direction hit because we were /performing/ with the boys, yes, they'd got back together just to sing with us. I laughed and smiled and sang my heart out, play the crowd Zach, play the crowd! The song faded out and me and the boys ran together onto the X-Factor cross, if we lost now it would be all over. I slung an arm around Blake's neck, and Harry styles slapped my back, "Well done mate." The judges beamed, saying well done etc. it was all down to the public... I ran off stage excited, each of the five boys hugged me before going off to seperate rooms, I spotted Shanea and ran over to her picking her up and spinning her round. "Hey gorgeous!" The backstage crew were all smiling, and Shanea was kissing me softly, but I wasn't concentrating, what if we didn't get through? Me and Shanea would move back home and where would I be? Nowhere. // I stood, nervously, this was all going too quickly. The results, oh lord. A lump the size of America appeared in my throat and I started to choke, Blake slapped me on the back and murmured, "You alright there Zach?" I nodded reply and closed my eyes, holding close my microphone. "The winner is... Fiona messinger! " I looked around and didn't know where to go so I ran over and hugged Fiona, "Well done love." That's the last thing I said for quite a while.