Miracle Baby!!!! Just to update you all finally, puffy1980 and i would like to let u all know that fertility treatment miracle Seth Dylan Williams arrived after a traumatic emergency csection at 37 weeks on February 25th thank you again for all your well wishes through the treatment xx

I'm Worthless I need to stop ! I wanna smile again and be with my friends I know it sounds childish , But inside I am … Only a child , I’m just a little girl, The one who’s dreams come true, The one who would hold you close, Only if I had a friend… I wouldn’t cut my wrist , Scars come open wide I wouldn’t want to quit , #life is priceless… I wouldn’t feel so down , Tears draw down my worthless face , Head tilted slithered in the waist , Now you get my point … It’s the only voice I got !

No Sleep Hot and pregnant = No Sleepies for the pig-o-let, hmmmmmm what mischief can I get up to??

I'll Never Forget You All! I miss you all, I hope you don't think I'd forget you I love you, I prayed so hard just to get you Now you are gone Not having you here has felt completely wrong Every now and again I cry and am sad Less little people to call me mommy There is a hole in my heart where you once were But each day is a day I am getting closer, To being able to hold you once again And to be with you forever in Heaven For now I am loving your brothers and your daddy And your little brother or sister growing in me happily You will always have a place in my heart Nothing can take that apart I am so very thankful for you You showed me all that my heart can do I survived being broken hearted and empty Just know, my little darlings, you will always be my angel babies

My Sordid Secret I am carrying the burden of secrecy, The price to pay for my dearest memory. My lonely silences have become heavy During these endless nights that offer no mercy. Waiting for a friend to intrude my privacy, Feeling needles and pins that would never leave me, I am living the sweetness of a fantasy ; A fateful day, please come to meet reality.