3 #haikus for recovery you need a purpose a reason to continue do not lose hope yet keep moving forward you'll find what you're looking for eventually go forward, young one take the whole world in your hands it will all be yours

motivation at it's finest will you? the words slice through me like a knife i don't wanna think about it i don't wanna think at all won't you? the familiar guilt trip one that i cannot afford after all i am a student first and foremost a scientist second, a mess can you? the million dollar question what is the limit; does it even exist you can i can i won't.

An Altered State Of Mind Nothing helps You will always be this way No way to lose control Too goddamn dramatic Honestly what the fuck are you doing Stop Guess now I know what they mean by floating in and out of consciousness So, so cold No sense of humour Not even while under the influence This is dumb Pointless Why am I doing this No answer Unsurprising Getting shorter by the second Stop Stop You're gonna hate yourself in the morning

cobwebs I've spent too long trying to quell the insidious thoughts that you've given me Too long trying to forget the way that you took shelter in my veins And buried your way into my mind Creating strands like a spiders web Years have passed and the hours slowly tick by The hollow sounds echo in my chest Too fucking long I've waited It's time to dust the cobwebs off It's time to let go

the art of escapism (aka how to run away from your problems entirely) i want to scream i want to rip my throat out i am powerless limited by my own head i try to speak but suddenly my mouth feels numb although it's not like anything useful comes out of there anyways all i feel is dread i sit and i repress and inside my heart is pounding and i'm paralyzed by a crushing sense of doubt but on the outside i confess to nothing i want to run away to unplug my brain even for a few minutes of precious solitude where i can't hear the buzzing inside my mind but there's no way out there's never any silence not even when i'm alone in fact it's louder than ever i distract myself and pray for a route of escape but unfortunately my brain didn't come with any instructions