My Day In Court. My day in court. His lawyer is yelling accusations at me, saying how I made it all up to get back at him. But I won't let him get to me. I answer all the questions given to me.with complete honesty. I do not understand why she is sticking by him, after all he admitted it to her when I spoke up telling her what happened. I do not understand people. Then just like that, His lawyer brings Daniel into things, it makes me angry. Mad. The subject brings me into an unfit mental state. I ask for a break, the judge allows me fifteen minutes. The camera is switched of, all my emotions come all at once. I cannot stop the tears. I cannot stop the panic attack. I just want to see Daniel. But they won't let me. I get to see Tamara though. Maybe she can calm me down. Make me feel better. I want to punch the wall. I stop myself. Thinking calm thoughts. There's not long left just a few more questions. I hope I can stay calm for these few questions. (Names have been changed due to anonymous reasons)

The First Time. This is something I wrote when I was thirteen just edited. I sit with my back to the wall, the boiling hot water hitting my skin. The boiling water isn't as painful as what just happened. I feel lost, I do not know what is happening in my #life anyone. I feel like everything is my fault that's what he said. It was because I got a boyfriend I didn't know having a boyfriend was a bad thing. He told me not to tell my nan, I don't know what to do with myself. The blood is running. The pain is excruciating. I just don't know how to feel anymore. Do I tell her? Or will she get really mad a hate me? Like he said she would. Why do I feel like this is all my fault… Maybe it is, I didn't know anyone could hurt me like this!!!! I don't want to leave the shower, the hot water is soothing the pain. He is calling my name, telling me to unlock the door. But I can't I don't know how I can look him in the eyes anymore.