Broken Glass No more you No more us I sit and wait In the settled dust You cut me short Moved on quick Just the thought Makes me sick You and her After you and me You're happier But you shouldn't be She knows everything She still chose you After so long Of not wanting to Then you were mine And you had to be hers You didn't listen to me You only cared for her words I warned you so So many times I had so many suspicions Been told so many lies I know everything. Seen it a million times before You never wanted me I wasn't spared even a thought You were never suspected Never a player of the game But sadly I've realised Everyone, EVERYONE, is the same. You're with her And I see you pass Your smiles and happiness Are like broken glass The shards lay waiting For me to touch them Then they're crunching, grinding Wearing down my skin Intimidating me Until I collapse into a heap out of fear They break me. Control me. Fill me with paranoia. Anger. Hatred.

A Lover Like You Barely a friend Then a sudden lover Didn't think about the end Or that there would be another Didn't know that you felt How I felt for you About somebody else And that they felt it too You see, that crushed me- Destroyed me inside It made me feel weak And I couldn't decide I couldn't just end it I loved you by then I didn't want to quit But make it work again Work it did not And we're only two months in I questioned us a lot The ice we walked on was thin I told you that I felt this way But you never changed You still were distant every day And to me, you felt estranged I couldn't bring myself to tell you I wished it could be over I wanted us to start anew And together we'd grow older But sadly we have come to the end You can't see what you've done wrong The damage you've done, I simply can't mend I guess I'm just not that strong.

Dark Skies The darkness surrounds me until I can't see Can't see what approaches or what it might be Might be something innocent, but then again not Not another dark shadow and another dark plot Plot for revenge and revenge you shall get Get out of here swiftly and never forget Forget what they told you, I say it's all lies Lies and deception, the darkness denies Denies the truth that I'm telling you now Now you know you must defeat them- how? How anyone would, with bravery and truth Truth from within, but the darkness will sleuth Sleuth to detect any weakness in you You must get out now, take your loved ones too Too many lurk so close in disguise Disguise under shadows and all the dark skies #looppoetry

Grace -for my mother, who is unbelievably brilliant Worn down after twenty-something years of giving Still, grappling for something more to surrender for these; Her own children. Supporting them through her own suffering, In a job she despised For a #life they idealised But she couldn't say no, Couldn't refuse Couldn't deny them of the #life they would choose She loved too much She was a mother of course It was natural to care; To want to give her children the best she could The only parent they would know For 10 years or so But even though he wasn't there When he was, they thought he cared Naïvety at its finest time He played his best tricks; His best lines This woman had sold her soul for her children But that wasn't enough for them They grew needy And greedy And wanting Wanting for something more So once they'd sucked the #life out of the woman they called mother Away they crawled To the one who had remained absent For most of their lives But who was suddenly so interested Now he had arrived. The one to play house With his son's new child Whilst his mother was left cold And waiting too long a while But she cared. Profusely she cared. Undeniably she cared. To the ends of this great Earth she would care! Til her heart stops beating, and even then Would she care. But he took no notice He had decided She was nothing to him now For no reason she could decipher; She saw no wrong-doing in all she had done for him But this as a repayment was too much to bear Being cut off- no, severed, hacked, wrenched Away from her son and granddaughter But for what? This mother blamed herself Broke down in tears She told me everything She told me of her fears That it was all her fault For the way that we turned out I cried and told her "no, no!" But it didn't affect her doubt The things each of us had done Hadn't been her fault at all But our own foolish mistakes Our meditated fall From grace, but she kept hers with the days The days that so eagerly passed Which helped, Because it meant she could forget the past.