Harsh Reality Times change this I know people come and people will go. I'm at that age where nothing seems to go right im at that point where im too tired to fight. I look around and see people leave people I used to love and care for all abandon me. My greatest wish was for a single savior just one person to save me from my tortured behaviors. But that was too much to ask to much of a great task. So alone I remain to fight this battle we call #life I just hope I can handle it without a knife.

Empty My whole being is empty, Nothing within me exists, I miss the #life I once had, The #life where everything fit. My feet are glued to the ground nothing will get them to budge, I’ve tried to continue to move but I have gotten too tired to trudge. People have tried to save me They have claimed to be my hero, But after short time all turn out to be a zero. The people all abandon me They leave me with no hope So with a dangerous behavior I had learned to cope. With a blade in my hand and a tear in my eye I had cut my skin and had tried to get by. So now I’m stuck in this cruel cycle and I’m less than satisfied It just leaves me with the question how long till my last goodbye. So here I stand waving a white flag the game is over And I’m slowly giving up everything I had once had. But these thoughts are getting old By now I thought they all had been already told. But no they keep replaying And I can’t take it what they are saying. The words cut like a knife Right through my sad fragile #life. They tire me out until I can’t function They tire me out, save me from this corruption. Shake me awake Jolt me awake Do all in your power to help me escape.

The New Me I often sit and think of the past, of who I used to be that girl used to have it all it was everything she could see. Now my vision is blurred and things are not as clear everything I used to have has been replaced with fear. Fear of the future fear of the past fear that my soul won't be able to last. All I am is an empty body completely hollow inside, "trust me im fine" is what I have lied. But fine was the farthest thing that could describe me fine was the only thing I couldn't be. I wasn't a mess I wasn't broken, no I was something much worse something unspoken. I finally came to terms that this is the new me I am the girl who will never be free.

You are the anchor that keeps me afloat.

Shut Off My brain won't shut off It's making me go insane It's slowly soaking up all of my pain. My thoughts are racing they are spiraling out of control I am being dragged deeper and deeper into a black hole.