The Urges To Cut Dark red Trickles Trickles down her arm A special little secret Known as self harm Fiery red Anger Builds up deep inside She's got to let these feelings out But to who can she confide Dark silver Blade Is the one that she trusts The one that she turns to When #life becomes too much Long white Sleeves To cover her pain Hide her relief Hide the cuts again

Sudden Outburst Sorry for all the posts, just having a sudden outburst. Opuss is pretty addictive

I Can't Eat The food is all around... I can't eat it... They are watching... They will call me a pig... They will call me fat... I refuse to eat... At least here... To many people... Watching... Staring... I need to be alone... Alone at last... I feast... Chips, Candy, Ice cream, and pop... something with lots of carbonation, it tasted good but I need to do something... run to the bathroom turn on the sink alone up it all comes You wonder why I won't eat... I pick at my food... and why I have lost so much weight...yet I see me as FAT A PIG...

What I See In The Mirror Looking in the mirror My biggest enemy Fat all over my body Is all I see I have to lose fifty pounds I want to look like a skeleton But I am so far from that Cause I weigh at least a ton Puffed wheat has forty calories Puffed rice has fifty That's all I'll eat Just wait and see I lost ten pounds I still look the same I started to eat That's when the weight gain came Worshipping the porcelain god Reflections of me Floating in the toilet water A fat face is what I see Stick my finger down my throat To release the gulit I feel Looking back at me My fifty calorie meal Looking in the mirror I still look the same I can't stop until I win I have to play this game

My First Cut the first cut isn’t always the deepest you promise yourself not ever again. but then you see yourself going for the blade just looking for the perfect escape. you can’t stay focused nor think straight, you find yourself again with the razor blade. now you’re unstable and not able to eat, you can’t get up or move your feet. you’re getting weaker and you don’t mind because all you want to do is die. little butterfly now you’re gone, why has everything gone so wrong? you were strong but not strong enough, now i’m missing you with all my heart, what have you done? i’ll promise to stay strong not just for me, but for us ?