I'm Back! I've been away for a while.. Had to catch up with my everyday #life before I could catch up on my writing hehe. p.s. there needs to be an android app.

New Years Resolution I'm not going to promise for the thousand time To quit chocolate, Go to the gym more Nor stop running late. All I want to promise is to be happy. I'm going to stop comparing myself to someone else's standards. To standards so high all you can do is fall off of the mountain. I'm going to be happy this year I think, I'm going to accept myself and all that I bring.

Insomnia Lying awake in the dead of night, Trying to fall with all your might. Wanting to let go, trying to loosen the knot, Trying to fall with all that you've got. Begging yourself to find the darkness, Trying to fall, but unable to regardless. Wishing to dream of a land far away, Trying to fall, as hard as you may. Imagining the most blissful sleep ever, Trying to fall, for now for forever. Needing to sleep more than you've ever needed to before, Trying to fall, fall through the trap door.

Never Will, Never Can It's that feeling you get when no words come out, When all you want is to forget that you even tried, The palm of your hands sweat and you start to jitter, When yet again you know that you're still just a quitter. Staring into those true baby blues, Knowing you can't say what you truly want to, Being trapped inside your head by what you know is right, Tortured by the potentials, the "could" and the "might". It's that feeling you get when your sure you know the truth, When you're frightened to talk in case it comes out, When you look in their eyes and they're begging you to talk, You know deep inside your silence was bought. Held hostage by your sense of right and wrong, You have no control, your mind holds you still, I'm desperate to tell you I really am. But I never will, I never can. Terrified that some truth may stumble out, I mutter excuses and make my way, Because after all these hours spent there's nothing left to say, There's nothing left to do but walk away. I'm desperate to tell you I really am, But I never will, I never can.

Untitled Something so black, so white, Something so wrong, so right, Nothing alike yet exactly the same, Two different bodies existing in the same name. Something so high, so low, Something so hot, so cold, Oblivious of the other to the point of despair, Always hanging, lingering in the air.