Alchemy I have anxiety, because I am scared. But, what am I scared of? When the world is my oyster.

Magical Rainbows Serenity Surrounding Auras Of Magical rainbows dance Outside windows Glitter under feet With each step taken Gratitude That helps Be Like this And that.

Heaven Was Dark Without You Overflowing Like a river Thoughts Of joy No where In sight Lights are dimmer Ever since you've been gone Candles are burning Sage is cleansing The air As I try To feel your spirit Because a little bird told me To stop overflowing To be strong That your light Shines brighter Than a thousand suns That's fine but, ill never be able to replace you I'll remain grateful For our love It was sent from above Composed in the heavens By a posse of lovely angels Who wanted to see What love looked like So they created you But, you're so special My love That you were called back To the skies again As quickly as you were sent Because heaven was dark without You. (Rest In Peace to my beautiful Puppy Monday ❤️)

Veil Of Maya Stagnant And #lifeless Although I say the opposite. Although I teach the opposite. Death Lingers in my veins The smell of defacation Helps me see that Slowly I'm rotting inside. Because I let my heart die. I thought it would be romantic to let you shoot an arrow in my heart But, I didn't know it had poison. Now here I lay Surrounded by mantras And asanas Hoping that the smell goes away. Your sickness Makes me hurt Although I should be Moving on I lie in my bed And sing to myself the same old Song Trying to melt The ice cube that surrounds my heart Trying to clean the smell of corpses Because you wont get better. the veil of maya will one day be removed Digging and digging in the dirt until You come face to face with your light. Where everything is so divine until then I'll sit here at 4am With this pain in my heart That over welcomes its stay. Eyes wide open Like a robot. Pain like a soldier And heart of a tyrant. I don't recognize this girl. The real me is screaming inside, begging to shine. Wanting to smile she's so scared of getting beaten down. Until then, i'll keep her safe, till she's strong enough to come out and shine again.

Pain rain go away As i try to make these feelings stay. Unconciously of course i do because im a secret Masochist in my womb. So what do i do Cry Cause nothing can compare Lets cryy Good or bad Still here Knots in my stomach make me forgert The halo over my head helps me rememberr... My stomach hurts from being so hurt But my head says.. hi, good morning. Lets enoy the dirrt.