Late Night Feeling Another night, dreaming of a starlit sky. Opening my blinds and being greeted by the sight of clouds. Perpetual gloom. It's not that I've given up... I've just lost hope. Don't let anyone tell you there isn't a difference between the two. There is. The way that I am, it can't be healthy. Relying on one or two people to be my fix. To take away the numbness. Feeling worthless when I don't get to talk to them. Feeling broken when I have to lie to them. Sure, I'm fine. Yup. Because I can't stand to have people worrying about me. Sleeping all the time and never feeling awake. Taking so many pills but never feeling better. What's wrong with me?